Daphne Greengrass

please pose my skeletal remains. give them a working pen and I will live forever. please let them love me though I fade

You can’t hold on to the thrill.
So I hope you find your will to follow through.
What we invented, I am now ( ending )

Hexed private to Sally, Sorin, Julian, Taff, and anyone else Astoria's friends with. Rather sloppily hexed

We're going to find whoever hurt her, and he is going to suffer. Understood?

[Hexed private to self]
I'm still trying to come to terms with the fact that Astoria has the virus. She's hardly the first person I know to catch it, but it's different when the person is question is related to you. And the others aren't from our family. Maybe some of the less conservative families can accept a magic-less child, but I have no idea how our parents will react. I'm hoping that for once, they'll be parents and support her regardless, but that hope seems misplaced, especially when they've never really cared about us, and magic and reputation is everything in this world. If I'm this worried and it's not even happening to me, I can't imagine what Astoria must be going through. I can't even begin to relate because nothing like this has ever happened to me- I've always had it so easy.

I do know that she doesn't deserve this. I understand that the world's never been fair, but I still feel like it should be me with the virus, not her. I wish I could be there for her, but I don't think she'll let me; we've never been close, and as much as I hope otherwise, I don't think that will change in the near future.

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[private to friends]
It's funny how in the past, I've never looked forward to returning home, but now I'd do anything to get out. There's not even anything to look forward to here, not when things keep getting progressively worse and worse. I keep finding myself waiting for the next bad thing to happen.

You know, since it's looking like we won't be getting out anytime soon, it might be nice to spend Christmas here. Of course, I would much rather be out of Quarantine, but I am certainly not objecting to some time away from my family. Life is already much easier without the constant owls. I suppose it's horribly uncouth of me to complain so candidly about my parents though. Those are things that are best left private, but being private becomes terribly tiresome after awhile.

I don't know. I've never been an optimist, but it seems best to focus on the positives, however small they may be. Complaining isn't going to accomplish anything, and it will only make this that much more unbearable. We're here; we might as well make the best of it, even if the situation is far from ideal.

Well this Halloween ball could be fun. Admittedly, the Weird Sisters never did much for me, but this whole thing is something different so I think it'll be worth checking out. And it is my last year; I imagine I should make the most out of it. The worst that will happen is that I leave early. Is everyone else planning on going?

Though costumes may be a little more difficult. I don't think I've ever dressed up for Halloween. It's not exactly the most proper thing to do. But there's a first time for everything, I suppose. I just have no idea what sort of costume would be appropriate. Any suggestions?

Private to Ioan
You're back. I thought you were going to try to make things work. What changed your mind?

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Hexed against Professors

It seems like we have far too much to do to write this weekend. It's absurd. My wrist is sore from all of this writing. But that's school for you, I suppose. There's always something. It's just a pity when everything happens at the same time. It's hardly the end of the world though. Just tiresome. Though it isn't a good sign if we're a month into school, and I'm already tired of it.

Oh, and Millicent. Are you still planning on having a party?

Heavily warded private

Right. I shouldn't be surprised. People leave. That's how the world works. The timing is awful though because I thought I finally

It doesn't matter. I shouldn't be selfish. It's not the end of the world, and things here will just go back to the way they used to be. It's probably for the best.

/Private

Hexed against Professors

I can't say I'm terribly fond of the idea of us all being trapped here. It's probably a wise plan, but knowing that we could leave if we ever needed to escape was reassuring, and now that's no longer an option. But I suppose being alive is better than being free, and there are worse things than being largely confined to the castle.

On a related note, is Sinistra still doing room checks?

/Private

Private to Slytherins
I had forgotten just how uncivilized the masses are. All they seem to talk about is sex and hating us. They don't even have the decency to ward things to their friends. You think they'd have some shame but apparently that is too much to ask for.

It's going to be a long year

/Private
Mother sent me the most lovely set of dress robes. She is apparently making up for otherwise being insufferable If only she had sent me some new quills as well. The ball seems to be the only thing that people are talking about, but I can't say I blame them; it's not too often that sometime like this happens at Hogwarts. I still haven't found an escort, but I'm not terribly worried. We still have another week.

Everyone is attending, yes?

Well. There are worse things than a ball. It could be enjoyable. It's a nice thought at the very least, and it's good to see them trying something new- and something with some class, no less. And really, it's not like we have anything better to do so we might as well attend. So I will most likely be there, implying that I have a proper date.

Private to friends
Another ball is really the last thing I'd ever want to go to. I've been forced to attend far too many over the past years. Unfortunately, my mother heard about it, and is insisting I attend because it could be a good chance to network or convince people that the Greengrasses are still a respectable family or something. I'm tempted to just lie to her and tell her I went though she probably has some way to determine whether or not I was actually there.

I'm not sure what I'm going to do with myself this week. It seems a little silly to cancel classes; if they wanted to give us time off, we could have simply stayed at home. I would prefer just to dive right into things. I do understand respecting the dead, but this seems a tad unnecessary.

I imagine most will find it absurd that I'm complaining about time off. I suppose most are looking forward to it. But sitting around here doing nothing is really the last thing I want to do, and I have no idea how I'm going to pass the time. I suppose I'll just be catching up with everyone this week.

Hexed private
I must be careful not to let myself be tricked into honesty again. There doesn't seem to have been any negative consequences this time, but you can't trust anyone and next time I may not be so lucky. I'll have to be careful not to be so foolish in the future. One shouldn't go around sharing their opinions with people who are practically strangers and have no business knowing what's on your mind. It was an interesting mistake, I suppose, and perhaps it was worthwhile but regardless, it's not one I should make again.

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I'm not sure how I feel about returning to school. Normally I can't wait to return to Hogwarts. I must say, it's always a relief to escape my parents. But I can't ignore the fact that it'll be different this year, what with everything that's happened. But change is always interesting, and I must say, I'm rather intrigued as to how it will all play out. We'll see, I suppose.

We still have another day of freedom though. I, unfortunately, have no idea how I'm going to spend it, but I'm sure I'll figure something out. What is everyone else doing to celebrate the end of summer?

It's a pity about the quarantine. I was hoping to visit France before school started up again, and obviously that is no longer possible. I suppose I should feel pity for those affected by this apparent epidemic, but it's terribly hard to feel empathetic for people I don't know, especially when they've given us so few details. It must be horrible to lose your magic, but I must say, it could be far worse. At least they're alive.

In news that is more relevant to my life, I've been made Prefect. I'm thrilled, really. Not everyone gets such an honor. I'm sure my mother would prefer if it had gone to someone else, but I am incredibly proud.

My mother is horrified that I'm going back to school. "But Daphne, why? You don't need your NEWTs. And it will make it harder to find a husband if you further pursue education; they'll assume you want a career!"

"Career" is a dirty word in the Greengrass household.

But this is just something that my mother and I will have to agree to disagree on. I don't think there's anything wrong with knowledge. I'm sure most of it will be quite useful, and I think it would be a mistake to pass up this opportunity. Besides, she's won all of the other battles in our house; it's time to do something that I want to do.

And furthermore, it's not like I'm doing something too horrid like marrying a muggle or taking off my clothes for money. Re-taking a year of school is hardly an issue.